No longer a heart mom

Isaac and Daddy time

One of my friends saw that I hadn't posted on the blog and wondered if I had gone into premature labour so I thought I'd better write.  No, thankfully the baby is still inside me.  We were in Listowel for the weekend and I wasn't able to post Saturday evening.

Isaac saw me crying today.  He was having his quiet time in his room and I was watching a couple of Youtube videos about heart moms and heart babies and remembering what Josiah went through.  (One of the songs talked about always being a heart mom and showed many photos of heart babies in the hospital looking just like Josiah looked.  I'm not a heart mom any more.)  Isaac decided to come out to the living room.  I'm not sure if Isaac has seen me crying before because the tears don't come when he's there.  I tell him that I cry for Josiah but I think it's good that he could see me.  I hugged him and he told me that he cries for Baby Josiah.  Later at the dinner table he said he wanted to visit the cemetery.  We'll try to go there this weekend.   He told my mom this afternoon that his room used to be Josiah's room and he was quite happy about that.

One of Isaac's Christmas books has a Bible verse and story for each letter of the alphabet so we've started memorizing them.  I make up a song for the verse and text.  It's quite easy for each of us to memorize the verse, except that I keep forgetting my tunes and that gets a little confusing.  I of course wanted to do the verses in order from A to Z.  Thankfully I'd just read about not being so controlling in my parenting so I decided to let it go.  We started with 'A', then 'C', and now we're doing 'Z'.  

The nursery is basically ready.  The clothes and blankets have been washed and put away and I even have a diaper bag ready to go.  I haven't packed my own bag yet but I have a basic list and a little pile of items.  I finally threw away all of Josiah's syringes and various other odds and ends. 

I saw one of Josiah's nurses in the grocery store the other day.  It was lovely to see her.

I just received a notice in the mail to let me know that Josiah's health card is going to expire in April.  It sounds like I might have to apply for a death certificate in order to let this part of the government know that he has died.  

It's been far too long since I read the Bible systematically.  It's so nice to be in the Word again.  I've been doing a one-year plan since the beginning of January but we'll see if that's still feasible after the baby arrives. I feel like I'm in a race against time to see how much I can accomplish and get sorted before the baby arrives.

Thanks for your prayers!

Blessings,

Elizabeth

1 Thessalonians 4:13-14
Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him.