Monday, 19 August 2013

Away at the cottage

Graham, Isaac, and I had a lovely week away.  A kind and generous woman from our church offered us the use of her cottage at a camp just outside of Cobourg.  It was the perfect place to relax and we all had a great time.  We didn't try to do too much so the week didn't seem rushed at all.

We were able to cry from time to time, usually in the evening.  I wished we had been able to say good-bye to Josiah while he was still with us.  I know we said a few good-byes at different times but we weren't expecting this and he was gone before we realized what was happening.  I also realized that we're making lots of new memories that won't include Josiah and so many things he was never able to do.

One day on the way to the playground Isaac said, "When Baby grows and is my age, he'll run after me."  He said he was talking about Baby Josiah.  He said that in Heaven we'll all be his age of two and a half years (Isaac, Josiah, Daddy, and Mommy) and we'll all run around after each other and tickle each other.  He said we would all be laughing together in Heaven and he told me a couple of times that Jesus would be laughing too.  That sounds good to me.  On a drive, Isaac said that Baby would cry for me in Heaven but I explained that he wouldn't cry in Heaven as he is always happy because he is with Jesus. 

I was also reminded this past week again of how incredibly blessed we were to have Josiah for almost 15 months and to be able to enjoy him.  It will be a great reunion.

We didn't have wi-fi so it wasn't until Friday when we were in a restaurant with wi-fi that we checked our email and I learned that Baby Ava passed away on the Thursday.  She had been waiting for a heart at SickKids Hospital.  I was so sad to read the news.  She is with Jesus.  I pray for her family.

I keep noticing new headstones at the cemetery and yesterday we saw a new grave right by Josiah's grave.  It's a reminder that so many people experience loss and grief.

We received all the permissions we need to post the funeral video but we need to write out all the names of the artists and songs so we just need to get around to doing that one of these days.  It should happen this week.

Thank you for your prayers.  I wish I felt the pain deeper but I think that will come in time.

Graham looked up this song tonight that I haven't heard for some time:  Going Home sung by by Sara Groves.




Blessings,

Elizabeth

Psalm 136:1
Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good.
His love endures forever.

2 comments:

  1. Just a note to say hello and that you often come to my mind. Elizabeth, bless you for your authentic honesty.

    I trust the time at the cottage has been a true blessing, rest, refreshed and all.

    Take care, remembering you in thought and prayer.

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  2. You are so "real", Elizabeth.; invites integrity. Think of you each day (remembering your blogs), if I get to the computer. God loves you and your enthusiasm to live your lives in His way, not conforming to this world. I never really thought of crying as a gift, but it is, isn't it? It is an expression given from God.
    Praying for so much love in your family. Much love.

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